Barely Keeping Up

I have not been "myself" in a while.  I know that and readily admit it.  I am not the bouncy, happy-go-lucky Jess that I used to be.  While there are certain moments when that Jess does decide to come out to play (most recently yelling "Bantha poodoo!" at First Order officers at Black Spire Outpost and sticking my tongue out at them after being told to "watch your language!"), for the most part she has been lost in her head, looking for a way to come out.   For a little while she came out and got massively creative.  She started writing again, getting out of the house, soaking up the sun.  She has also been wanting to do a lot more stuff lately.  She just lacks the motivation.  I lack the motivation.  Do you remember when you were a kid and there was something that just screamed "you've made it!" For me, it was people who had a swimming pool.  It didn't matter to me if it was above ground or in-ground; if you had a pool, that meant ...