Unacceptable.

 I try not to write anything political.  I'm fairly sure it's obvious what side I'm on, seeing as how my family makes of all sides of the LGBTQ rainbow. Not only that, we're all some sort of neurospicy.  I'm fairly sure that if we went full authoritarian my immediate family would be part of the group that is essentially eliminated.  Wouldn't that be horrible if I just predicted my own demise? Makes me wonder how all this will hold up and if this blog will be deleted and removed or will it end up being a snapshot of some random person's history.  Isn't that a question that we ask ourselves- how will history see any of us? Will we even be seen?  There are a whole lot of people in the world that have died that we don't know about, the average "joe" and such.  Think about how many millions of people have come and gone since the likes of DaVinci, Michaelangelo, Mozart, Tesla, Marie Curie, Susan B. Anthony, Harriet Tubman.  How many names will History really know?  In fact, random side thought- in school I didn't really learn anything about the famous women of history.  Anything I learned was from research I've done on my own.  I wish I had taken a class like this in college.  That would have been awesome.  

Side quest aside, the political thing... I woke up yesterday to learn that the country I live in has bombed Iran.  This after not having gotten a lot of sleep.  I know I live in a very privileged bubble.  I currently am able to live fairly comfortably. I can afford things that many Americans cannot right now, but I don't have health insurance.  I have access to basic health care and can currently afford my prescriptions, but I think it's going to get a lot more expensive in a short amount of time.  Our groceries have been running around $250 a week for a family of 5 which we could cut down if we didn't buy as much soda.  I've seen 2 litres go from less than a dollar to over $3 in my lifetime.  Milk has had the same kind of climb and my family is all lactose intolerant.   We have found ways to cut stuff down without cutting out quantity or quality. My wife bakes a lot and buys base ingrediants to actually cook rather than using pre-made food.  Tonight, we're having homemade pizza.  We do eat out, but not as often as we used to.  That's just some of the economy issues that we've got.  The whole K shaped economy? It's quite scary if you think about it.   

Socially, being neuro-spicy, which I think is a super power, a lot of people look down on.  People are getting louder as far as their bigotry, homophobia, racism, xenophobia, etc.  The president of our country is adding to the vitriol, blatanty lies, and has been convicted of 30+ felonies.  It's my opinion that he doesn't actually seem to care about most of his constituents but would rather chase fame and accolades from people with more money than him.  He doesn't seem to realize that there are more people in the world that think he is a joke.  In our own country, people are trying to stand up to unconcionable activities perputrated by our government, the people that we trust above all to take care of us.  The people that are supposed to look out for our well being and in turn, the people that need the most help are left.  While there are billions of dollars to give back to our president just because he got his feelings hurt, spending millions on litigation for the presidents own family.  Not to mention the enrichment that has gone on with not only the presidents family but the wealthiest people in the world.  Meanwhile the people that are barely scraping by, struggle more and more to afford what they used to be regular staples and things are becoming more and more costly.  

Companies are cheaping out their products but charging us more, making billions in profit for their CEOs and shareholders and yet the average person struggles.  Meanwhile, I see other countries on social media - glittering, technologically advanced cities where groceries are so much cheaper.  Our cities are crumbling, infrastructure in need of more jam and such.  Our education system is getting worse and worse and where we were told to think critically and were told that community and family is the most important thing, our culture has been shifted to being independent but follow what I like.  The president continues to drive wedges into families, punish people who don't agree with him, and bully women.  

If I had treated anyone the way our president seems to treat people, I would have been treated to a spanking.  I would not have been able to get away with it.  I was brought up to give people a certain amount of respect and kindness.  The way the president behaves is, in my opinion, 100% unacceptable.  He does not have the best interests of this country at heart.  He cares only for himself and his bank account.  I don't understand his behavior and I don't understand how anyone with that much metaphorical blood on their hands can sleep at night.  The anxiety that I get from trying to understand and figure it out is staggering.  

My brain hurst.  My heart hurts. I can't even imagine what actual war looks like.  I can't fathom not being able to afford the simplest of things.  People having to choose between medication, housing, and food? People should have access to health care, have a roof over their head and food in their bellies.  Everyone needs those things.  Why doesn't everyone have these things automatically?  

Hopefully, one day we will see it.  It won't be in my lifetime and maybe not even in my kids' lifetimes.  I'm glad I can still hope.  I'm glad I can still write about these things.  I think things are going to get a lot worse before they get better.  That makes me sad.